4 years

This is a re-post from my sister cami's tumblr page and because they don't let you comment on tumblr pages, i wanted to tell my sister that she said it perfectly. i miss my dad. it would be so fun to have more conversations with him, more trips with him, more days with him. thanks cami for a great tribute.

it’s been 4 years since my dad has passed, so this post is dedicated to him….

my father is someone that….

makes sure you do what your mother says
holds back your hair when you are sick
lets you eat ice cream for breakfast
walks you down the aisle
gives you nicknames to make you feel extra special
isn’t afraid to acknowledge the elephant in the room
has the voice of a lion
but the heart of an angel
makes up songs about your friends names
gets kicked out of your basketball game because he’s yelling to loud
makes the best mix cd’s
is always up for a good discussions
pops your toes
gets all the cracks out of your back
is the best golfer
is the biggest jokster in the world
gives you money if you rub his feet
farts at the dinner table
is the best bargainer (he always lowered the prices)
cooks the best krepes in the world
scares your date by simply cleaning off his gun
is good at everything he does
rubs his stubbly face on your cheeks
teaches you how to drive stick
makes his presence known
is always up for camping
isn’t afraid to go up and talk to someone
lipsinks
lets you comb his chest hair
plays the guitar
writes songs about your mom
tells the best jokes
doesn’t like wearing ties
falls asleep while watching golf
tickles you until you’re about to pee your pants
scares your friends
obnoxiously squirts you with water
sits and plays with the kids for hours
is not afraid to throw you realllly high in the air
works extra hard
lets you cuddle with him
sings duets with you
makes an impression on everyone he meets
builds the best snowman’s
teases you about everything
master’s the “shoulder boppin” dance move
makes everything he eats look sooo good
gives you advice
makes you dream bigger then the stars
is filled with passion
loves you no matter what
tells you everythings gonna be okay
believes in you
and is always with you.

i love you, dad.

miss you dearly.

valentines gift shop

kendall and i will have a beckend designs booth at the valentine's gift shop in st. george tomorrow! come stop by and see us! and our cute coasters!

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Valentine’s Gift Shop

Need something for that special someone…

or maybe just for yourself…

Come choose from various vendors and

get something for everyone on your

Valentine’s Day list this year!!!

Saturday, January 30^th

^10am-4pm

^{26 W. Tabernacle, St. George}

^{(Directly across the street from the Tabernacle and Town Square)}

^{***Remember to come early for the best selection!!!***}

excuse me . . .

. . . can you see that i am working, going to school and interning at the moment?!!!

this is so how i feel right now. i am an ambitious girl. i'm pretty sure everyone who knows me, knows that.

i personally put an enormous amount of pressure on myself to be better and better and do it NOW!! even now, as i write this, i am feeling it. 26 years old and what do you have to show for it. why don't you own your own business and why aren't you making 6 figures by now? it's funny, because now that i am getting these thoughts out of my head, i can see how silly they are. when did i make the decision to do all that and when did i get the crazy idea that it would all be done at once?

these crazy thoughts bring me anxiety of the worst kind. the kind that makes me dream dreams that i should never dream and the kind that literally feels like fear gripping me telling me that i cannot face the day. it's horrible.

so my opening line is exactly what i want to say to those thoughts. "CAN YOU SEE THAT I AM BUSY RIGHT NOW!" i hate to put things off. when i get a good idea, i want it to be done now. not later.

which is why i have so much on my plate.

the point of this rant is that this podcast that i found via kate via kera, below just spoke to me. the ENTIRE thing spoke to me. but mostly the story that starts at about minute 13. {in case you want to skip through it, but i recommend the entire thing.} elizabeth gilbert has a way of saying things, and her voice is so calming.



i feel like there are so many ideas that come to me from my "little genius" that elizabeth mentions, that i am just not ready for. and i begin to feel guilty that i am not in that place yet that is ready to develop that idea that would be so amazing if i could give it all of my focus. but i am giving other things my focus right now. i am where i am and i have a hard time accepting that sometimes.

i love the idea of continuing to show up. to be there. to be present and available for things to happen through you. just show up. my mom used to say this too. sometimes, just showing up is enough.

please let me remember this when fear grips me and tells me not to get out of bed. please remember, becky, that showing up can be enough.

this podcast came at the perfect time for me. i hope it shifts your paradigm as much as it did mine.

ole!

beautiful sunday hike.

love this hike. slots is one of the best. and the fact the leah stayed up all night then drove up from vegas to go on this hike was awesome, especially since she was crazy the whole time. :)

an adventure

went on an adventure to find the river on sunday with landon, kailyn, grandma, sara, and the two dogs - sophie and kai. :) it was so fun. i made mom try rollerblading. pretty funny!

love these little kids!

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pretty cool date for a birthday this year. :)

celebrated mine and michael's birthday with the fam last night. {his day is tomorrow.}

cutest smile ever.

thanks for the amazing yogurt cake! my favorite!

the recipe - mac and cheese

this is the recipe that we sort of used. . . thanks to diners, drive-ins and dives. we added some different cheeses though. harmons has an awesome cheese section. :)

good luck :)

christmas and the amazing mac & cheese

i sort of forgot to post about christmas this year. . . and i sort of forgot to take pictures of much. so here a the few moments that were captured by my camera.

cute little landon and kailyn on christmas morning playing with their toys. {slept at brad and kendall's so we could watch the little kids experience santa. so fun!}

brad with dominic. so cute.

token cheesy christmas tree pic.

christmas day dinner. hello! {this was brad's plate.}

i promised shane i would blog about this because he was so excited.

mac and cheese!

haha! he hated eating traditional holiday dishes and wanted something good. so this is the yummiest, cheesiest and most expensive mac and cheese i have ever had. good job babe.

it's huge!

but oh so yummy. :)

hope you had a good one!

so this is the new year

first post of the new year. happy new year.

a strange sense of self-love and happiness was with me this morning. even with my resolutions of attaining my ideal weight and eating better. i found this sense of peace about this coming year which left me excited, as if i already know everything is unfolding perfectly. in case some of you are grabbing a bag to puke in right now. i will stop. but i still feel amazing.

i slept in and didn't actually get out of bed until about 2pm. i woke up late and opened a book, that engulfed me for 3-4 hours.

eat. pray. love. by elizabeth gilbert. to be made into a movie with the fabulous julia roberts. so excited.

oh how i love this book. it is an escape for me to a life that i would love to live. at least for a year. i want to travel as she traveled. but my mind and more importantly my heart, knows that it's not quite time yet. but soon. :)

now i am off to visit and play with leah and cody in vegas. lots of shopping and talking is waiting for me. :)

i hope you are having as good of a new year as i am.

loves.

2010

image via.

6 changes

‘It does not matter how slow you go so long as you do not stop.’
~ Confucius

once again. thinking about resolutions. loved this article from zen habits and plan to do it differently this year. plan on changing my habits.

choosing 6 changes to make every two months in 2010. although they may sound overly simple. i like them and have thought long and hard on which 6 changes i want to make.

overall goal, big picture: love who i am.

1 change: exercise every morning (even if it is just for ten minutes)
2 change: eat 2 fruits and 2 vegetables everyday (seriously people, this is a goal)
3 change: drink 8 glasses of water everday
4 change: floss everyday (i know . . .)
5 change: meditate everyday
6 change: begin writing book (no i will not tell you what it's about, yet.)

will document my journey of these 6 changes here.

here i go. like bob from 'what about bob,' taking baby steps. :)

as far as the normal resolutions go. i love some of the ideas from here. and will implement some of them, even if they are not everyday habits.

how are you going about your resolutions? or am i just a resolutions freak this year?

tracking santa

just found this fabulous site that is fun for adults and kids. start tracking santa now!

have you guys heard of this site before? so cute! happy christmas!